Pervenit III: A New Phase of Self, Revealed

puervenit III (40"x40")

The canvas for *puervenit III* began, as many of my pieces do, in a kind of rich, contemplative darkness. I remember sweeping those deep browns and blacks across the surface, feeling the weight of unspoken thoughts, the quiet hum of existence before form takes hold. It wasn't despair, but rather the fertile soil from which everything else would grow – the raw, unadorned beginning. This deep, earthy palette felt like my own history, layers of experiences accumulating.

Then, as if a breath was taken, I found myself drawn to the ochre and golden hues. As I spread them, I wasn't just mixing paint; I was recalling moments of resilience, unexpected warmth, the glimmers of light that always manage to break through. There's a certain stubborn hope in that golden glow, a feeling that even in the deepest shadows, a foundational strength persists. It's the grounding energy that reminds me to keep searching, to keep moving.

The journey of *puervenit III* truly began to take shape with the blues and whites. When I pushed that cool, pale blue into the upper section, it was like finding a quiet pool of water after a long trek – a moment of unexpected calm, a space for clarity. The stark whites, in their bold, vertical strokes, felt like declarations, pure moments of truth cutting through the murky depths. Each sweep was an exhale, a release of built-up tension, allowing a fresh perspective to flood the composition.

Those vigorous, dark horizontal lines near the top, almost like a tightly wound skein of yarn, emerged from a feeling of internal knotting, a dense tangle of ideas and pressures. But even within that perceived constraint, I allowed delicate white tendrils to escape, to swirl and dance, representing the mind's incessant movement, the free-flowing thoughts that can never truly be contained. They are the whispers of inspiration, fleeting and ephemeral.

And then, that large, defining oval on the left. As I worked the dark pigment around its form, then outlined it with that vibrant, almost electric blue, I was thinking about personal space, about the core of who I am, a protected and intensely felt presence within the larger, more chaotic world. It's an energy, contained yet alive, pulsating with its own distinct rhythm. It’s a focal point, a whisper of self that refuses to dissolve into the background. The black drips that fell naturally, almost accidentally, were moments of surrender, allowing the paint to guide itself, embracing the beautiful imperfection of the process.

The title, *puervenit III*, holds a very personal significance for me. "Pervenit" means "has arrived" or "reached" in Latin. For me, it speaks to a continuous journey, not just an end point. The "III" signifies that this is the third iteration of this exploration, a further step along a path of understanding. With *puervenit III*, I wasn’t simply finishing a painting; I was acknowledging an arrival at a new phase of self, a point where certain truths, certain feelings, have finally crystallized enough to be expressed in this way. It's about reaching a deeper resonance within myself, allowing the layers of my inner world to surface, and finally, to stand here, revealed. It is an arrival, but always, always with the understanding that the journey continues.